Looking forward, Not Back (Vira)

[sera]

She hadn’t meant to come here.

She had been digging for her father’s notes on the town, hoping that would make running this place a little easier if she knew the little details. Not that she wanted to see the notes at the same time because that meant she’d know how her father thought and that was honestly something she didn’t need to know. His mind had been a sick and twisted place if you asked Sera, and she was one of five other people that would know that fact very well because they had been his daughters…and his wife. Sera didn’t remember much of her mother but she knew enough. Remembered following at the woman’s footsteps, close at hand. The warm touch and the comforting words. The presence of her. It was thoughts of her mother and her mother alone that helped the temperamental young woman deal with her abilities and the way they tore at her.

She hadn’t meant to come here at all. Too many memories. And all of them painful. But if there was anywhere her father would have kept his notes it would have been here. She had gone past the mostly unused door, unsurprised to see footsteps here or there in the dust. Vira had probably been here. She didn’t understand, but she wasn’t surprised. She doubted she would ever understand her older sister, but she didn’t try to. She just took Vira as she was and left it at that. There was nothing else to do when it came to her very purple older sister. She didn’t even remember Vira before she was purple, and she wondered if her sister remembered either. Probably not.

Vira didn’t even remember that Sera had told her she was leaving, Sera thought with a smile at that. Constantly accusing her. Sera simply assumed it had been an off day and had left it at that. In truth, it was Vira who had brought her back here, Vira was the only one who would have been able to pull her back. Her big sister, sounded so confused like a little girl…Sera had to come back. Had to be there for her sister. What type of sister would she be if she hadn’t come back?

She shook her head. She was looking for the papers now. She had gone further into the lab, and wishing she wouldn’t have to. Shadow, her familiar, had never been in here because Sera had never allowed herself be dragged back here after her year long stay in her room where she had called Shadow to her, needing a companion. Needing comfort. And that was Shadow for her. Her gaze fell to the cat who was delicately sniffing a pile of Sera didn’t even want to know what, as the witch went further into the rooms, her gaze falling on nothing in particular.

Until she got to one room in particular.

She froze, and then slowly walked over there, her hand brushing against the table…

She tugged against the grip on her arm. She didn’t like being in here! She didn’t want to be in here! The tugging managed to loosen the tie from her hair, loosing the brown hair that was kept much longer than when Sera was only 13 than it was now. Now it was kept short and more serious, aloof. But then, she had just been a girl. A little girl. A little girl who had only managed to develop a skill for one of the four main elements.

Her father wasn’t pleased with this of course.

”Daddy let me go! she had cried, digging her heels in, not that it did her any good against her father. He didn’t even act like he heard her. And from the way his eyes gleamed she figured he was too deep in his private happiness that he was going to experiment again. And for the first time on little Sera who had usually evaded this because he had been waiting to see which abilities she would develop. He hadn’t been happy at all when it had only been one. She was the daughter of two highly gifted witches after all, he had chosen her mother for that very reason and she had disappointed him.

Good things never happened when you disappointed Daddy.

Her eyes searched the room frantically as her sneakers tried to find purchase in the tiles and failed. Where was Vir? She was usually here, she usually was the reason Sera got out when this happened! Not that she actively got Sera out but just by being there! Not that Sera wanted Vira to get hurt, but she just…she just didn’t want to be here! She also didn’t want it to be her little sisters, no. That wasn’t allowed either. The twins needed to stay away from Daddy when he was like this.

He picked her up by the waist, still holding her away from himself, impersonal as always, as he lifted her on to the table. ”Calm down, Sera. I’m just going to make you better. Those words scared Sera. That was what Daddy always said about just about anything when it came to experiments. Like the time he had tried to make the puppy the twins brought home better and it had turned green and died a week later. She didn’t want to turn green and die a week later too.

Sera wasn’t good enough with her powers to use them to get away, and even if she was Earth was no use in here she was trapped. Her hand dug into the locket around her neck, her mother’s, so hard that it left an imprint of the engraving s on it on her hand. She didn’t notice, she gripped it harder and tried to scramble off the table when she saw the size of the needle coming her way. No, no no that was not going in her arm! Or anywhere else! She tried to scramble away but he still had her arm. She screamed as he pierced the skin with it, going to see her genes she knew now. Going to twist them over the next two years she knew now. She didn’t understand then. Then she had just wanted out…

Sera came back to the present with her hands digging into the table in front of her hard enough to bruise her hands again, the locket, the same locket, falling from the deep dark green silk blouse she wore to hang in front of her. It calmed her enough to stop the mini whirlpool of water she had created around herself as she had gotten upset. She hadn’t been paying attention it seemed. Damn. Either there was a leak around here or she had summoned the water herself. As she calmed, forced herself to calm, her control over water vanished and the water splashed to the floor, almost hitting Shadow but he jumped out of the way in time.

He was dead. He was long dead. She had to remember that. And ignore the phantoms in this room.

She heard a noise behind her, a loud one, and turned, tired and ran her fingers through her chestnut hair. Though a faint smile found its way to her lips when she saw who it was. ”Hey big sis” she teased lightly at the very purple presence in the room. Weird, she hadn’t been alone with her sister in the longest time. They always met in a group, the four of them, and then went back to their respective corners. It didn’t bother her to see Vira. Not in the slightest. Sera loved all her sisters even if they drove her insane.

[vira]

Vira woke up in her purple bed and she looked up at the ceiling, it was purple, just like everything else Vira owned. She loved all things purple, and she kept her room as such. At least she had Sammy make everything she owned purple. She didn't know what time it was and she didn't really care. She was just blinking, she was just looking the ceiling. She was just watching purple blend into purple. She didn't hear anything. Normally she heard Sammy cooking and Eva yelling at him, these were the the sounds that she woke too, that weren't there when she woke up today.


Which was perfect, Vira giggled as she sat up because she always giggled. She was being quiet. She had to be, she was sure that Sammy was awake. Possibly he was out training someone, he always was training people that way. Eva may have been doing her own thing. What ever was going on Vira didn't care much about it. She wasn't feeling like herself today. She was feeling sad. She was feeling sad because she missed her Daddy, she stood and stretched frowning a little bit as she giggled a little more.

She thought of going to take a shower but she knew herself. The water would distract her with how hot and pretty it was. She would stand there until she felt the chill in her bones and then Sammy would have to come and get her out there and she didn't want that because then he would insist on going with her everywhere she wanted to go today. She didn't need that. Sammy never understood why she missed Daddy and Vira didn't know how to explain it to him and she had stopped trying. It didn't do anything for her head.

She ran her fingers through her hair and shifted her purple pajama dress to a big poofy dress. It had thick straps and a heart shaped top. She loved it, she always wore big dresses, she thought it made her look gorgeous and maybe if she looked this way someone would actually love her. She knew it wasn't true though, No one would ever love her. No one would ever ever love her because she was crazy and no one would ever be able to understand her.


She smirked and giggled a bit. That didn't matter. She had more important things to think about, like how she missed Daddy and how she was going to go visit him today. Well, not really. She wasn't going to visit the body of her father because that was just so weird. She was going to visit the spirit of her father, who lived in his old lab. Not a real spirit of course, Vira had seen and felt that of spirits before and her fathers definitely wasn't there. She could still feel him there though, she wasn't sure what it was that she felt there but she knew it was there. She knew there was something there, just a feeling of him.

She sighed a bit and then giggled and walked out of her room and started skipping down the hall and to the beginning of the stairs and she ran down the stairs, when she got to the bottom she giggled and figured that that they may not have been the best idea since anyone in the house would have been able to hear her antics. No one came running so figured the only one in the house was the butler Jensen, Vira shrugged and made her way over to the door pulling it open and rushing out.

No one could get her now! she giggled and spun about contemplating whether or not she wanted to fly to the lab or take the leisurely walk over there. She smiled and ran quickly taking off into flight with a really loud giggle. She loved loved loved flying. It made her happy, her hair would fly back and she could feel the wind in her eyes making them tear. She spun about happily flying toward her father's run down old lab and landing at the front of the lab.


She smiled and pushed her hair back, making her way over to the door holding her dress up and pushing the knob, and walking in hearing the old door creak. She peered in and sniffed the air smelling the smell of old chemicals and her father. She blinked, and all of a sudden feeling nervous. She sometimes got really nervous when she walked in here and for the life of her she couldn't remember why. She shrugged and walked in deeper her boots making no noise on the linoleum floors until one of her foot stepped on a broke mirror and Vira eeped running in further.

That was when she saw someone else in side of her fathers lab. She grinned when saw who it was, it was her sister Sera. She loved Sera, Sera was her favorite sister and she loved spending time with her, she ran over to her and glomped her giving her the biggest hug she had ever given her.

"Sera! I missed you! What are you doing here? Are you here to visit Daddy's memory too?? That is what I am here for. Daddy's memory is here"she grinned still hugging her sister, she had missed her so much. Even more than she had missed her father.

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Muse: good
Notes: She is sooo strange

[sera]

It took Sera Blake far too long for her liking to remember she wasn’t that little scared girl under the clutches of her father. She wasn’t her father’s pawn, she had never been. She had been the one to do her best to keep her sisters away from his clutches, who had kept them away from the patients at the Asylum. She was the sane one. The one who tried so hard to be a good sister to all three of her siblings, while still keeping an iron clad control of her emotions thanks to what her father had done to her all those years ago on this very table that she was clutching.

It took too long to remember she was the very sane, very in control of herself young woman who needed to be strong. She couldn’t be the wild child she once was in college, that brief taste of college that had been so sweet to the young woman…she couldn’t be her anymore. She had to hide away her tattoo, hide away her pierced navel and keep it all under control. She knew this, she just had to tell it to herself every once in a while. It was needed. She hated this stupid thing, this stupid place. It made her feel like she was losing her control.

She needed her control. Without it she may cause some poor town to flood, or cause an earthquake or a tornado or a fire storm…she was too strong. She wondered what Daddy would have done if he’d known he’d created a power house like her. Probably be proud or something. She clutched her mother’s locket and floated memories slid across her mind. The soft warm laughter, the way her mother’s hand felt in hers, little things that were so blurry to her now but so important because they kept her sane. Sera was the only one Sylvie had gotten to have and hold. Vira was their father’s in more ways than one and the twins were just babies. Sera had had her mother all to herself. She wished she remembered more than that.

But it was enough to let her keep control of her emotions. Enough to cause the little whirlpool she had caused around herself to settle and sit. Causing a puddle on the floor. The sound of glass breaking had caused her to whirl around. And see the very purple sister of hers. Most people assumed that Sera was the oldest Blake because of how she acted all the time, but that spot was Vira’s, not hers. Vira acted like a child most of the time, not that it was her fault, which meant Sera had always had to take the older sister role, but she had never minded this. She wanted to help anyway she could, always had. And she had always loved her crazy older sister.

When Vira glomped her and hugged her tight, Sera laughed because she hadn’t been expecting it, causing wind to swirl around and ruffling both of their hair, pulling at her clothes and, because it was such a light and frivolous thing, Sera didn’t bother to pull it back. Wind was the hardest for her anyway, she wasn’t often happy so she didn’t often get a chance to control it. It was a new development either way, it had sprung up while she was away from this place. She barely had had time so far to explain it to her sisters. She hugged her, much taller, older sister back. Sera had taken after their mother and was not the tallest woman, she was just about 5’5 if that, it was probably closer to 5’4. She tried to take everything Vira was saying one piece at a time.

Out of all her sisters, Sera had the most experience with Vira, and sort of knew how to deal with the way she thought, though Sera figured only Sam really knew how to talk to Vira fully. Not that Sera minded, she was glad Vira had Sam to keep an eye on her and be her friend. ”I missed you too, Vira” she said, and it wasn’t a lie. Like she had thought earlier, it wasn’t often she saw her sister without the other two. She could handle all three of them, as long as it was one at a time. Otherwise Vira was pouting or spazzing about all the fighting, and Kitty and Addy were causing all the fighting. When they were all on their own, usually they were all relatively normal and easy to deal with. She could be the peace keeper between them, and often she found herself in that spot. Mostly because she thought of herself as the only sane one.

Sera found it very hard not to sigh though when Vira said she was here to visit Daddy’s memory. Well, in a way, Sera had done that herself, but she hadn’t planned on it at all. She had just come here for other things. She knew that Vira had actually liked their father for some Goddess only knew reason though. She didn’t know why, but she knew she couldn’t say bad things about their father with her nutty older sister there. Instead, she called up her inner calm and shook her head. ”I’m trying to see if I can find his notes…to help us run this place. Figured it would make it easier” she explained, deciding to leave out the fact that actually being anywhere near where their father used to be gave her near panic attacks.

She wouldn’t begrudge Vira her bizarre happy memories of their father. She wasn’t that cruel. She wasn’t cruel at all, unless her temper flared, which it would do now that she had fire in her blood, she was usually the more gentle sister. They all had a temper though, and that was another reason Sera kept her words to herself. She knew about her older sister’s temper. It was just easier to skip over the topic.

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Comments: Lol she's trying not to upset Vir

[vira]

Vira couldn't remember the last time she had come and visited her fathers lab. There were so many memories here which were good and bad...There were a lot of bad memories here. Vira looked around the place and she frowned a bit thinking too much again. Whenever she thought too much bad things happened...

She looked at her sister and she grinned a bit the thoughts from moments before being dismissed from her mind as she glomped her. Sera said that she missed her too and Vira bounced happily. Sera had missed her? How wonderful. She loved that Sera missed her because she had missed Sera, she was been gone for so long. Sera was her favorite sister after all.

"I am so glad that you missed me Sera!! cus I missed you, I did I did I promise! I missed you so much that I would sit there and tell Sammy about how much I missed you and about how much I wish you would come back because I never knew you were even leaving or anything!"she started laughing then because she was out of breath out of all the stuff she had said just now.

She looked around then looking around at everything that was all dusty. She didn't like looking at this stuff exactly. She loved coming to visit so she could feel her fathers memory but sometimes looking at all of this stuff just didn't make her feel good at all...it made her start thinking...

Sera shook her out of her thoughts saying that she was just looking for papers of her fathers and Vira grinned widely

"I know where Daddy's papers are!she ran up the the steps on the side of the lab and saw her fathers other desk and then she stopped and blinked...

Vira was only five years old and she loved when she got to go out and play with all of her toys but today she didn't get to play with toys. Today she had to go in to daddy's office to see him. He wanted to show her something he had said and Mommy was out so she didn't mind because she figured that Daddy didn't want to be a lone

So she skipped into her daddy's office tucking her black hair behind her ears and she skipped over to her dads desk

"Daddy? You said you wanted to see me?" Her father stood and Vira just smiled at him as she held onto her brown teddy bear that her mother had given to her. He walked over to her and kneeled down to her before speaking softly

"Vira dear, Today is a very special day. You know why? because Today you get to do an experiment with me.

"Me? I get to help you daddy? Tell me what to do Daddy!"she grinned and sat up on a medical table that her father had in the middle of his office. She was bouncing and holding onto her teddy bear when her father came around to her and had a needle and for the first time ever she felt a little scared,

"Daddy I'm going to be okay right? You would never hurt me right Daddy?"Her father didn't answer he just came over and started humming something low under his breath he stabbed her with the needle and she screamed and she dropped her bear before passing right out.

Vira was crying hysterically and she had no idea why but she called for Sera anyway. "Sera come up here! Daddy's paper are up in this desk up here!"she said through sniffles before falling up against the wall and she cried some more not knowing what to do or what was wrong...well at least she could help Sera right?

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Muse: meh
Notes: another flash back

[sera]

Part of Sera desperately wanted to leave her father’s lab. Even though now that her big sister was here, though Sera rarely though of Vira as her big sister because of the other woman’s temperament, she still wasn’t happy. She wanted to leave this place and go back to pretending it didn’t exist. Maybe Vira would come with her and they could sit somewhere normal like her house and talk like the semi-normal, semi-sane sisters they were. That was a happy plan for her, and for a moment, she emersed herself in it and let herself forget all the horrible memories that played on the edge of her brain just from being here.

But at the same time, leaving now would feel pointless, and would make her feel like she was a failure. Because she had set out here to do something, she had braved all the bad memories of this place in order to do it as well. She was not going to sit here now and turn around because she was scared. That would just mean that she had come down here and dealt with all that for no reason. At least if she found the documents and notes she was looking for, she could say it had been for a reason, and she had accomplished something by working through the fear that kept her away from this place, when she usually tried to be so fearless for her sisters’ sakes mostly.

It was easier to forget all the sad, scary memories that plagued her when she was here anyway, when she had Vira coming over to glomp her and then go on and on in answer to the short little I miss you that Sera had said to her. She expected it really, from Vira at least if not the other sisters who would just look at her and say something and then move on without so much as a hug. Vira would talk and make you really feel loved, even if she was entirely off her rocker, she was good at being the oldest sister in that respect, at least to Sera if not the other two. Sera hadn’t paid enough attention to notice to be entirely truthful about the matter.

She had to stop thinking entirely in her head anyway, because she needed to pay attention to all that Vira had gone on about in order to answer it all properly, she always felt bad if she missed something Vira had said…mostly because in many ways Vira was like a child, and it would be just her luck that she would miss the one thing that her older sister had actually wanted her to hear. SO it was usually best just to try and catch it all and reply to it all, wading through the many words the girl used to describe one thing. She seemed especially hyperactive today…and for a moment, just a moment, Sera wondered where Sam was…because usually the pair of them were attached at the hip, mostly because he looked out for her.

”I’m sure you really did” Sera said with an actual smile, truly believing that Vira did that. Pure little thing that she was most of the time, Sera had yet to catch her in an actual lie that wasn’t just something she had forgotten and earnestly believed was the truth. That was different, because it was related back to what their father had done to her when they were all children. That was okay because sh ecouldn’t help it. But the wind still played, because Sera was actually happy. She rolled her eyes though when Vira insisted, for the hundredth time, that Sera never told her that she was leaving. When in fact, Vira had been the only sister that Sera had told. ”I did tell you Vira” she insisted gently. ”You can even ask Sam, he was there” she said. She wouldn’t push the issue, but she wasn’t going to sit here and nod about it.

She laughed, actually laughed how rare was that sound, when Vira insisted she knew where their father’s papers were and ran up the steps, but stopped curiously when Vira after getting up to the next floor. Sera paused, waiting as Vira seemed frozen in thought, and then went over to her when her older sister started crying. Oh Vira…she frowned and walked up the steps until she was up there too, after her sister had called for her to come up there as well. She shook her head and wiped the tears from her cheeks. Being that Vira had always followed around her father, and Sera her mother, they hadn’t had much time growing up together…and Sera had always been able to be protective of the twins but Vira was already basically their father’s. So she didn’t know most of what Vira flash backed too, but all the same…

”Are you alright, Vira?” she asked softly, looking over her sister with a small frown and not approving the tears. But what could she di? She wasn’t as good at knowing how to work with Vira as Sam was, but she was no pushover either. Doubting Vira would even know what had bothered her because Sera had seen it happen before, Sera still waited to see how her sister would answer.


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